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Saturday, May 13th, 2006
4:21 pm	Chiang Mai and Pai well my darlings been in thailand for 3 weeks now. working on and off for a lady..brief reading. helping elise to set up a community project out here ..paticular in Pai further north from chiang mai. < its been awesome. not always easy...but easy does it lessons come forth hope all your ventures are bright love and light ANJ x (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 25th, 2006
11:55 pm	Well i havent written here for ages have been living in ealing on jim's floor while working at chiswick off to thailand on 19th april....hopin to teach out there. stayin with Elise for a lil while so can look for work. Hope you all well, hope you are all walking the steps you wish in life. Remember God works in mysterious ways...sometimes shit happens but it is what we Need rather then what we want. 'All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him. ' - Buddha Love and Light ANJ (Comment on this)
Monday, June 6th, 2005
10:26 am	sometimes we get clouded, we get caught up in tryin to know HOW and WHEN that we stop straight in our tracks. Maybe my heart is the loudest one beating and I am thankful for the heavens seem to be talking to me now and where shall i cross the line with u. do u not want me to touch u, to envy you to erase you from my memory. Brighton was lust, it was fuelled by too many horomones, too many egos and too many addicts around me like moths pleading pleading for another way out. and i took myself to great heights and great lows to try to balance my scale here. but its time to leave it behind. time to do something useful with my time, instead of regretting falling behind and nearly falling asleep like everyone else. tryin to get the best job, the right amount of money, the best man/woman, the largest most secure house, and then get up the duff. that isn't mine, that isn't my escape here. i am not running away, i am merely wanting to climb new mountains. made love to too many souless men, and screwed with the minds of lazy bosses and now it is time to fly at great heights, been lovely chillin at ali and michaels house. i miss those two. had lovely night bottle red wine chillin with ali in the rain, yet it didnt touch us. soon back to brighton. soon, the house here is luxury and it is shall i say very grand. it is lovely to see what hard work can afford. to show what love and similiar vision can create. this too shall float and seek like you and I. Just seen Motorcycle Diaries uncanny ANJ just called me as well, she's just as excited and curious about gettin on our way as I am. not rushing, anticipating excitedly the road ahead. tryin to make all these moments here count. to hold, to be true , to share with loved ones everything we can. to no longer have an urge to hold anything back from anyone. love and light ANJ x Current Music: P J Harvey - Good Fortune (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:56 am	so right now it is silly hour in the morning and i feel drunk, i know i am not, i know i have drank very lil but my mind is on a wim and right now i am alone and wanting to watch contact but the dvd machine here aint doin it for me god i miss u you sometimes all of u with your silence, your smiles, your laughter i dont mean to bitch i dont wanna be resentful of anyone else but me yet here i am longing longing longing to get on my own feet and run run run away and yes u can pretend i said absolutely nothing and i can pretend i didnt leave uni over a year ago and have i accomplised anything from then???? well maybe i have and maybe i havent but i we judging on material wealth here, or the knowledge and experience only i know has passed through my fingers. so why do i wanna leave why now and what is the rush anyways surely u can wait a year??? maybe not. maybe right now is the perfect time and i should have left before but i felt tied to all of u, i felt tied down and that was MY FAULT MINE alone, and no one but yourself imprisons you no one but YOU drains you the devil and hell is your own self created torture, and once you have gone there and freed yourself once you are burned its only NOW you start to cool down remember you have written every option kissed every tear and smiled and painted every rianbow and it shall protect u the whole way love and light ANJ x (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
12:38 am	still snappin forgot to say i managed to get some wick lars shots regardless of photo pass dont let the bastards drag u down!!!! went into jessops today and held a lush cannon digital SLR oooo i want it ssssooooooooooooo back home croydon till monday love and light ANJ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 30th, 2004
2:04 pm	HELLO HELLO listening to ciara's tracks she rawks well hard in case in guys didn't know my sister ciara is an awesome drummer and the drum of the 'female busted'..... no no that doesnt do them justice they FUCKING RAWK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bringing tears to my lil eyes pride pride pride love it ciara regreting i wont see u today missed u loads here for u always ANJ x (Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
9:46 pm	r u r u r u what are my eyes telling you that my voice isn't????? (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 4th, 2004
4:06 am	finally finally finally home just to confirm to you all that the house in brighton has gone through successfully, thank fuck. It is a 2 mintue walk (not even) from The George, just off trafalgar road. Fucking awesome right in the laines hehehehhehehe to crazy brighton riots hehehehehe Havin to stop smoking NOW, throat in inflammed again and my chesty cough is so unsexy. The bus driver on my ride home even made a comment when i got off the bus, bless him going to bristol on 10th with christina doin loadsa work want camera want it now girls, no offense but i dont wanna go to some chavvy club on our birthday, you are both more than welcome to, but i am movin the next day, so i aint up for it. it isn't my scene, and i simply don't want to. sorry to seem like a party popper have fun with your friends there, we'll have a meal before or sommit Vicki...careful does it, thanks for email. i ain't falling into or out of anything, head screwed on, listening to ME. L you are my brave starlite grrl and i am here, take this time to go inward and you shall have a mulititude of realisations and loves love and light all ANJ Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Redemption Song - Johnny Cash & Joe Strummer (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
6:24 am	what an awesome night wendy's birthday. a bunch of us in a limo for torture garden, was well fun am knackered. i love that place, there is something so refeshing and soothing off it, like a sweaty kiss. i dunno love it anyways love and light ANJ need sleepin workin in morrow xxx (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
3:13 pm	a lil more calm now well my darlings. wont have any $$$ till middle of next week...suppose i cnat complain, but i discovered with being unemployed for over 6 weeks i was only entitled to £50...although i got a letter saying i was allowed £44 each week i have been on their system...which worked out as 3...or so i thought!!! go there today, they said i was on their systems for 10 days so was allowed a week and a bit benefit. my bank wouldnt increase my overdraft by £50 just to cover me until next week when money clears. charming...so NEVER get black listed it will always fuck u up! may sound ok but god dammit limited food here. So yeah just to warn u all, always read things a million times and keep checking...never assume my bank still hadnt ordered my new bank card (although had done that on 23rd!!) so yeh u can imagine, been workin for over 3 weeks...still yet no money oohh well i cant complain, just feel slightly cheated, love and light ANJ i dont wanna be a consumer, not in excess i just want a new roof over my head some food in my nouth some light in my eyes money fucking sucks but u need it to survive don't over do it material bullshit overload just cough and save and don't be a slave to the system that is all spend spend spend consumer culture sucks but eating food rawks just dont waste dont waste don't do anything too much :-) Current Mood: irritated Current Music: There is a Light That never Goes Out - The Smiths (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
11:01 pm	one of those fleeting moments here i sit as if nothing was absent anymore as if i dreamt all this and finally i am stepping the path i always saw ahead of me and on this journey i have feared, and by God I have held myself back, making mountains out of mole hills, yet i suppose that was half the fun....causing your own turbulence and never really realising now u realise it what do you do do you pinch yourself and giggle the warmest inner laugh, because for once no one can witness this but yourself its holding on, letting go, stepping forward...never forgetting i am fond fond of a million star fleeting moments and i thank you for allowing me to look into a million eyes, touching a million different paces try to open my eyes as much as i can if only to smile up at the sky above me, that will forever expand, retract and expand all I ever wanted all i ever needed all you ever dreamed of Is love and light xxx Current Mood: determined Current Music: Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want - The Smiths (Comment on this)
Friday, August 27th, 2004
11:58 am	aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh knackered day off today...so dad calls at 10am. doesn't sound harsh but when u get in at 3am every morning and u want one day to rest AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH bless going to sherringham to see mum in a series of plays. finally got sommit published in Big Cheese,,,,,thats right...the above issue intro page (plug it plug it plug it..self promotion is corny hehhe) love and light ANJ x (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
1:36 pm	when do i have the time now wheni work aaaaaa NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo knew my SG pics werent right quality. Well grainy and some not sharp enough NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO they want me to do shoot again at least they want me but wah I am gutted :-( (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
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11:37 am	so u wanna know whats the juice well well 2 lates in a row today i am knackered need to go to bank as the fuckers have swallowed my card again aaaaahhhhhhhhhh well well aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww anyways today and tomorrow my days off this week, so need to be productive reading another Deepak Chopra book at the mo, i love the way he writes wendy's TG party on 3rd no $$$ aaahhhhh,cant wait till work pay me love and light ANJ x (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
12:44 pm	sometimes we move barriers, we can choice when we do this as most of the barriers are within and self created. u see that???just then sometimes i catch myself, do you catch yourself??? when you slip up, your mind sives through things and u feel guilty by that. picks up and tunes into moments that u need to just appreciate and take part in , rather than hesitate and get paranoid about. jon centre today... reluctant by the whole thing. but look at it this way, when i need a pension, the government wont be able to help me...so while i have no cash and am lookin for a job , they can help feed me well my peeps its safe to look inside as well as around (Comment on this)
Friday, July 30th, 2004
4:17 pm	well well dole till u knole been job centre aint i!!! tryin my loves to get a lil $$$$ just to cover food and travel so if i get a job interview i can get there!!!!!! well well Sweeney puttin up my images, bless him what a dude had phat chat with christina that girl is rawkin Chester and Sam emailed aawwww sweet couple from Wasted loadsa forms to fill in bought crazy vegan sarnie slices....dont ask well miss livliness hopefully sommit will come up L u cool my lover, not heard u been behavin? ANJ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
2:10 am	truddle buddle folil with my muddle its all about the ability to change the way u look at life at situations and oppurtunites as well as what u are putting out the week with jim was lovely and i suppose i openly chatted with him about lots. My paranoias inc which i think is something men often find hard to hear. because they have worries too and maybe cant verbally explain them, and why should anyone say sommit if they arent ready to it beyond me but he's cool, he can handle when i rant on forever about why or why not, even if i am talkin a load of balls he is supportive and honest and HONESTY and love are the things the world relies on what is the point bullshitting a sentence together, fabricating a moment life is rather simple yet rather details and intricute but hey honestly just breathe a lil ( i always say that) but its true if u stressin...start breathing, watch each breath because normally we are freakin about a multitude of dumb things are never relaxin sleepin on a panic isnt fun its not really part of your bigger plan.....how is it gonna help u??? wicked that james has come round vodka and coke mmmmmm not to sure, feelin a lil we-wah but hey peeps its a journey ahead that takes decisions and patience lookin forward to sortin a few things glad big cheese are printin my image hopefully...lookin forwrd to puttin my work in the directions i want it to go in love starts at home with yourself dont be arrogant, but dont punish yourself love and light ANJ x (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
2:34 pm	THE SQUIRREL JOKE! Just because youre profane doesnt mean youre not hilarious. Youre the unique kind of joke people remember for a long time. Which Eddie Izzard Joke Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 1st, 2004
8:42 pm	well why? i dont know why i suppose the greater question is why not there are few people in the world I open up to, and when i am open with someone i find it hard to let go i except change, doesnt worry me in the slightest i never wanted to be back in IRIS (goo goo dolls) and i am not there, not in me anyway so me tryin to reach a connection with someone isnt about love or sex, its about being. I want u to meet jim, he's so lovely and u would probably get on pretty well. Movin to Brighton is something with christina and never about invading your space. its a dream i wanna share wiv her...not u but if i see u can we b civil? ANJ (Comment on this)